who's in control?

when the one advantage i have
to control my own life
doesn't even factor into the equation
i am nothing but victim

when the one advantage i have
to control my own life
is useless in every single crisis
i am nothing but powerless

when the one advantage i have
to control my own life
is the only weapon in my arsenal
i am nothing but servant

a powerless victim
in endless servitude
spiralling downward
towards eternal nothing

- 12/17/94

to the asylum