a puncture in the shell
blood pours forth
red and steaming
yet somehow cold
spills on the earth
destroying the land
this barren spot
my new eternal home
one with everything
one with nothingness
given my life to the world
found replaced by death
drained and depleted
yet still so full
bursting at the seams
holding it all in
energy potential inside
screaming for release
love is courage
love is fear
- 4/5/96, 1:30 - 2:00 pm