spheres…
/\/
walk of life /\/
an invisible wall
imprisons me.
spheres protect
humanity.
to feel as if on display in a case,
a raging china bull doll feature of disgrace.
“that monster!” will describe in a while,
yet deep inside, the mind is just a frightened child.
too scared to scream for fear of losing his soul –
and otherwise he’s rarely even noticed at all.
a freezing cold envelops as if to shield from the pain
uncaring eyes are poor disguise and wall close in to strain
visible quarantine,
infectious me.
spheres project
humanity.
/\/
objection /\/
shattered vision.
never at all.
contradiction
leads down to fall.
structure vision.
dream through all walls.
in deception
blood flows and falls.
down to null.
/\/
recurse /\/
who could come to the wall. a resting place.
all repel from the wall. too-sacred space?
who could tell that the wall is crushing away,
out of control and smaller and tighter it stray?…
forget tomorrow. i can’t even laugh today.
drowned in sorrow’s formless tears i play.
forgot tomorrow. hardly remember yesterday.
breathing sorrow’s twisted fears. decay. away. ashes stray.
invisible walls restricted me.
spheres protect humanity. from me.
/\/
eternal return to sender… /\/
what protects me from myself?
my self
that worlds have twisted around
my neck
broken under stress. last caress.
no memory replacement. null. void. destiny ends so null, void…
/\/
epilogue /\/
there remains a light buried amongst the rubble. walls crush.
still alive, the one lies wounded, in his bubble. walls touch.
there remains a fight to rise again. reclamation. walls end.
what price does one have to pay. in decay. to be complete?
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