nonbalance

society is wrong...
we learn as children
that good people are happy
and the evil are miserable
therefore i am evil
we learn as children
that those who do good are good
and those who hate good are evil
therefore i am good

however, i feel more evil than good
and i don't understand why i do
i know i am good, at least i try
but i always feel so miserable, so evil
i am filled with contempt and love
for my existance and for all others
when life stops making sense
is that the cause of insanity?

- undated

to the asylum