nevermore

"destruction is not negative -
you must destroy to build"
- einsturzende neubauten

open... closed...
open... closed...
barred shut
broken down
misuse nevermore
grey becomes
burning black
matters not
lost myself
to find
i lost
myself to
find i
lost again
my self
opened up
only allows
fiery arrows
charred soul
ashes scattered
over meaningless
sites erode
leaving waste
open... closed...
open... closed...
forever wide
sick inside
"i can
feel the
wheel but
i can't
steer when
my thoughts
become my
biggest fear
what's the
difference i'll
die in
this sickworld
of mine"
rotted stench
floats through
switch opens
closed doors
jammed broken
never more.
found i
lost myself
finding my
place in
the world
that place
i found
i lost
myself in
circling overland
invisible silent
screaming skull
and fortyseven
behind me
in limitless
singularity is
this not
the end
or just
a beginning
closed... open...
nevermore found.

- 2/15/97, 6:10 - 6:25 am

quoted text from "sickman" by alice in chains from the
album "dirt" (c) 1992 buttnugget pub./jack lord music

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