i can't believe i am here again
yet it feels like i never left
and, though i've come full circle,
it is different - better now
i think - we are so much closer
(yet still so far apart)
and i tried to kill these feelings once
it is just not to be
i know i should just accept it
yet to do that is to deny
and pretend that i don't feel this way
it is so hard to lie to myself
i am doing this to myself, you know
yet it is what she does to me
and she knows she does, not like she tries
it is just the way we are
i will never lose hope for change
yet i fear that it won't
and i'll be stuck in this void place
it is the wire beneath my feet
"no hope = no fear" - pete steele, type - o negative
"obsession, the will to fly (it would be nice)
still a nagging doubtful mind (it will be fine)
straight ahead half luna shines (now is the time)...
up on the edge, ready, one, two, go..." - voivod "angel rat"
- 2/23/97, 11:15 - 11:30 pm