kill me...don't cure me
just leave me here for dead...
i want to be torn apart atom by atom...
no pain could hurt more than that i feel just because i live.
i want death right now...
i feel much too much,
i don't deserve this hurt
please allow me to die slow and agonizing deaths
for as long as eternity allows
i need suffering to make me feel truly whole i must die...
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death is too swift an adversary for me i want
a death i will feel forever and ever and then on
- sometime during fall of 1995
during educational psychology class